today, I was just thinking about how many people just really go through this life without faith and it takes something like cancer to inflict someone or even ourselves to make us realize that we aren't invicible, that we are not in control of our own fates. Some would like to think so but if they could, then why still all this pain and suffering that is still inflicted on mankind? Some like to blame God, some like to blame man. But not ourselves. No. It'd be bad to blame ourselves for things happening. Sometimes its true, Sometimes its not. Hence, I don't really see the point to human objectivisim, a philosophy advocated by Ayn Rand. How can one possibly function as the epitome of what you perceive to be your own perfection? I believe humans are relational beings. We have a relationship in everything: from our jobs to friends, to loved ones, to our spouses, to the world.
"My philosophy, in essence, is the concept of man as a heroic being, with his own happiness as the moral purpose of his life, with productive achievement as his noblest activity, and reason as his only absolute." - Ayn Rand

I raelly don't understand this phrase but from reading the Fountainhead, it almost seemed that its protagonist didn't seem to care about the world and almost imposed his own ideals, taking them to be written in stone and imposed them on the social values. The characters in this book are impossibily brilliant and complex. It almost seems too idealistic to think like that. Man as a hero. THere are heroes, but perhaps it'd be too selfish to think and too pretentious a philosophy. If reason is his only absolute, then what is this absolute reasoning? what are the standards of this reason? Do these standards of reason apply the same of every person? IF that is the case, then it seems that this statement is fallible in that, if man's own happiness is his moral purpose, then wouldn't it 'cost' another man's happiness? Because if every man develops the same type of 'absolute' reasoning, then it seems that then only one man can sit on htat throne of ultimate happiness.

These rhetorical ramblings are just mere questions that sit on my brain and perhaps make no sense to you because I still question these things myself.

Still, I wonder about life and death and just the fragility of life. Just like a piece of glass, easily broken at anytime.